Sam had been keeping a secret from you all these years,” his wife said softly, her eyes filled with sorrow. “He was never the same after your son died. But it wasn’t because of the accident.”
I looked at her, confused, waiting for her to explain.
“He was grieving in a way I didn’t understand,” she continued. “But after years of being with him, I learned that he was trying to block out the pain—he thought if he didn’t show emotion, it would hurt less. But deep down, he couldn’t handle it. He loved your son… more than you knew. He just didn’t know how to show it.”
Tears welled up in my eyes as I realized the weight of what she was saying. “Then why didn’t he ever say anything to me? Why didn’t he open up?”
“Sam believed if he was strong enough, you would be strong enough too. He never wanted to burden you with his pain. But he couldn’t carry it alone,” she said, her voice cracking. “After you divorced, he fell apart even more. He told me he regretted not being there for you when you needed him most. But by the time we got together, the damage had already been done.”
I was speechless. The pain from our past still lingered, but now it seemed there was a deeper, untold story behind everything I thought I knew.
“He kept your son’s memory close to him,” she whispered. “Every anniversary, he would visit the cemetery alone. He didn’t want anyone to see how broken he was inside.”
I sat there, processing everything. In some strange way, I felt like the last piece of a puzzle had just fallen into place. Sam had been trying to protect me in his own misguided way. But the truth was, he couldn’t protect us from the tragedy we had both faced.
As I listened to his wife’s words, a sense of bittersweet understanding washed over me. Sam might not have been the husband I wanted, but in the end, he had loved our son more than I ever realized.
And maybe that was all that mattered.